The final day was the hardest. It was so hard to walk away from everyone that I loved. Watching everyone crying, crying myself, and feeling all of the pain was nearly unbearable.
I knew that time had to come, and come it did.
Not only did we have to say goodbye to our mother...we had to say goodbye to our Abby.
Words can not express this moment, so I will let the pictures do the talking.
It is all but a distant heartbreaking memory! Oddly enough this story does not just end there nicely and neatly! Let me just tell this story from my perspective... here's a girl and (I use girl because finding them reduced me to a little girl) that was rejected on so many levels.. I wasn't quite sure how to fit in.. I was a broken girl that did not connect with her adopted family and did not connect with her birth family! She wanted to and was trying hard to connect but it just wasn't happening with my new found family!
ReplyDeleteEvy asked in one of her blogs should she have found Abby... yes.. yes you should have.. it has brought me so much closer to my adopted family. Perspective is si key in this story and journey of two completely opposite yet in so many ways alike siblings get together and try to be family again.
Just to make things clear .. both sides were trying to adjust. Both sides of this complex puzzle were trying to shove their puzzle pieces in the wrong shape. We all were so desperately wanting our piece of the puzzle to fit! When in actuality if we all would have worked together and really looked at the puzzle and studied the pieces in our hands that we had to contribute to this puzzle... we would have realized exactly where each piece needed to be gently placed and then we could of all stood back and admired the family puzzle! Unfortunately we all felt our piece to the puzzle was immensely more important than the other pieces.. but the truth be told.. ALL the pieces are as equally as important as the others! Unfortunately this is a lesson learned way to late! Why you ask do I say it's too late?... because my life is good and quiet and I have such peace now. There was a moment last year when two of my sisters and a couple of nieces came to Florida to see another sister who lives 45 minutes from me! Was I invited to go to Walt Disney World with them?? The answer was a heart breaking NO! Was I even contacted? NOPE! Did I have to see all the pics of them having an amazing time just 45 minutes away from me? One of my nieces actuall didn't have time to see me even though she actually drove right by my house literally... I was 1 minute away from I4 ....it's ok... but for self preservation.. I quickly and promptly blocked every single family member .. except 3! Now I have let one sister back in... she's the most dejected and broken one of us ... but we are the most alike.. except for the addiction .. that's something I have a hard time understanding.. but what I do know we love , and I mean really love each other and I will never give up on her!
I'm happy and content in my life. I am beginning to write my book and I have bought a beautiful home in Florida with a pool .. I'm one street over from my adopted mother and stepfather! I have an amazing husband and four grandchildren and life goes on.... stay tuned for Abby's book!